As you can see by the title I’m feeling an array of feelings this afternoon after dealing with a very annoying hacker situation over on our shop website for the past 24 hours. My sweet friend, Eliza sent me an email yesterday after ordering her new earrings because she’d noticed that the PayPal receipt showed she had paid her money to: the hacker’s name and email here ..
I happened to be in line waiting on an iced latte when I read the email and practically snorted hemp milk out my nose..texted Erica, we’ve been hacked, un-hooked the payment method from our website I’m on the phone with PayPal now! Several hours later and a bunch of busy work and following up to do with a handful of customers and I was pooped, defeated and downright discouraged.
Uuuuuuggggghhhhhh..not the kind of thing I want to be dealing with. Truthfully our launch has been wonderful in so many ways but there’s also been so much resistance surrounding it. So much spiritual warfare if I may. Definitely a sense that someone or something is indeed hoping that I feel weary, defeated and discouraged.
But then this afternoon I was thinking about the things I have been cultivating and praying over and longing to share, the imagery of a garden and tending and believing for growth and life to emerge where seeds have been planted. And I realized that the hacker is such a beautiful illustration of a weed or a pest. The super annoying and frustrating things that come along that threaten to steal kill and destroy and to deter us from continuing the day to day task of simply watering and tending to all that we have been entrusted with.
The quote by Elisabeth Elliot came to mind: don’t dig up in doubt what you’ve planted in faith and than I took a deep breath, centered my mind on hope and claimed that the only reason I am under attack it because this garden I’ve been tending must be about to explode with new life and joy!
So I’m sharing it here. I’ve long wanted to bring to this space a little more about what it’s like to be a stay at home mom and run a shop all at the same time, and it felt like the right time to jump in and be honest. It’s not always easy or fun. But it’s worth it.
If you’ve been working on something that’s been passionate on your heart but it feels like you’re knee deep in the weeds of despair and doubt let me hope for you today that it’s gonna be good you’ve just got to keep tending to it like a garden. It might not look any different from day to day but over time it’s going to burst into full bloom – you’ll see! God wouldn’t be putting those beautiful dreams on your heart if it wasn’t for a reason.
And same with me, He’s got this so I don’t need to, all I have to do is trust! And of course – call out those hackers when the come along!
Love you all – off to pick up my tribe from school! xoxo